Today should be different.  This Mother’s Day I should be placing two candles on a cake. The fact that it’s even Mother’s Day at all should be merely a distraction as I focus on celebrating my sweet Allorah’s 2nd birthday. Instead, I am putting together a Butterfly garden in her memory, consoling her Big Sister that misses her daily, nursing her little brother that she will never get to meet earth-side, and trying to stay strong for my husband that’s hurting as deeply as I am. How did we get here? The question, “How did we get here?” echoes over and over again in my mind.  It has been 9…